Jackasses and other things...

So right before the first power outage I get a sms from James.  An sms he didn't mean to send to me.  A sms that talks about how he wants to screw another woman. 

(I can barely hold hands with someone and he's fucking other woman already.)

He then send another one saying "oops meant for someone else :-)"  No shit!  And thanks for rubbing it in with the smiling face.

It's always enjoyable to have someone take a knife, wrench it through your heart, twist it, then laugh as they pull it out. 

/end heartbroken-angry rant

Comments

[Danielle LaFleur]

Thanks Susan, that does make me feel better.

Now if I could just figure out what parts are the ones that need to be hardened w/out becoming a bitter-angry woman.

[Susan]

And P.S.

My wake-up call cruel person was also named James.

[Susan]

I've been there. And yeah, it's hard to face that you invested or even spent a moment of time with someone who is or can be cruel. But I've done it, faced it and things have hardened in me that needed to harden. I never would have said that back then, though. I thought my soft places were my identity. They weren't. They were just places for the unscrupulous to exploit. Sometimes my brain doesn't want to believe there are people like that out there, but now my heart knows and it expects better.

I bet if you look back upon things, him being cruel isn't that big of a surprise. He was probably selfish and uncaring in other ways. Now it's a matter of loving yourself more and not accepting a moment of that kind of treatment from anyone, ever again. That will turn this whole thing into a positive for you.

[Danielle LaFleur]

I'm scared that is true... which makes it hurt even more. Adds the guilt of "how could I be so blind to trust someone who, under it all, is so cruel. Have I really learned that little from past relationships? Is this a pattern I'll never break?"

[Susan]

Sounds cruel and intentional to me.